i wish with every ounce of me that this was not happening
i feel sick to my stomach…i need answers about what is going on…
i like mitch. i should just let myself be more open to him. i feel like i put up a wall cause im afraid and idk. yesterday we had a great time and we make each other laugh hysterically and we have amazing amazing sex. and hes just way too pretty for me. but he thinks that im way too pretty for him…so its kind of a good thing :] hes just an all around super great guy
so i keep wanting to see mitch more and more
its so weird because mitch just explained how he feels around me and its weird because i feel that way around certain people too but i never realized someone felt that way towards me. he said that im just so cool and awesome and he really likes me so he doesnt know what to say or do. i mean there have been times when i am around someone where they are different from me in a way that i dont know how to act or what to do or say so i just dont say anything. but the thing is that mitch doesnt act like thats how he feels.
i am super depressed
so things have been interesting lately….
i met a really cute guy :] i hope he likes me.
i thought everyone had moved out of this building
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i dislike being alone
so interesting things have been happening…matt left today and i saw him for the last time last night. and we fell asleep on the couch together and hugged goodbye…no kisses…he didnt place his arm around me on the couch but i think im ok with it…we were both so blah….i realllllly liked him and he did help me so much these last weeks…it was so nice to have someone to talk to and i am going to keep in touch with him because i just enjoy his company. ive never met someone who has so much in common with me….its CRAZY
YESTERDAY oops haha was nicks grad party and mitch ended up being there.. i havent seen him in awhile and i felt weird so i was gonna leave and then he followed me out to my car and convinced me to stay at the party. then today we went out to dinner. it was nice. i mean i like talking to him. and i feel so different than i did last year. i am in a different place.
i have things to say…
yesterday was senior walk…and idk whats going on with me and matt. he was busy the whole day, it was his graduation. but idk if we are friends, if he likes me……i wanna know. i just wanna know.
mattlast night we hung out until 3am and it was so wonderful, just drinking and talking…oh i loved it. i really like him. a lot. we havent kissed so im not sure where he stands but we talk a lot!! and i just like him….im going to try to have a kiss before he leaves sunday and a talk…
well i dunno whats going on with me and matt…he used to be so talkative and these past 1.5 days suddenly he seems so weird…like something happened even though i saw him yesterday and used his bathroom. idk what to do….it makes me sad. tomaro we were gonna get margaritas etc blah whatjhshfjaksdhkfnjd
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i feel like ive lost myself in college
